31 Dec Where I’m at on New Year’s Eve
image courtesy of my husband
I’ve been working on my end of the year post for days now and I’ve written and rewritten. I’ve rambled on and have been rattled. I’ve contemplated things and confused myself. I’ve almost published and then I’ve hit delete. Over and over. I guess I’m not certain of what to say. I’m not really certain of anything. Heading into a new year, I usually have a strategy, a road map, a plan. But, the start of this year feels a little different. Because instead of standing on the threshold of a new year holding my well-designed map, I’m holding hands with the Great Unknown.
Over the past few months, my focus has been on wrapping things up, creating space, making room, and slowing down. And truth is, it’s feels strange. I’m just not used to it. Not yet anyway. Truthfully, I’m feeling a little lost. But, not without hope. Realizing that this is exactly the place I need to be right now is comforting but it’s not comfortable. Not being certain of exactly where I’m headed is unnerving but it means I’m having to embrace uncertainty. And because it might be hardest thing for me, know it’s going to be a great exercise.
And with that, I wish you a Happy New Year and hope that you are exactly where you need to be and that you find some comfort in that place, whether it’s comfortable or not. Just know, that no matter where you’re at, you’re not alone.
CindyC
Posted at 11:51h, 31 DecemberInteresting…I feel the same way. No giant goals and resolutions this New Year’s Eve. It started with the holidays. I decided to put down the “have-tos”. I did what I could and what I wanted, meandering from one day to the next, moving my attention here and there. Trying to stay in the moment and not to get too overwhelmed. There was alot of stuff I didn’t do (send out cards, put ornaments on the tree, bake), but it was okay. We had a wonderful Christmas and I’m looking forward to a lovely year. I wish you a very delicious year, Tracey!
jote
Posted at 11:55h, 31 DecemberI’m also feeling unusually un-tethered going into this new year… Here’s to remaining hopeful, and forging new paths in 2014. xoxo
Christine
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Jennifer calderon
Posted at 13:05h, 31 DecemberWell did Tracey! I embarked on that path a few years ago. It’s a beautiful one. And you will find yourself in beautiful new places and “spaces” you’ve never imagined. Happy travels into the new year. 🙂
Jenn
Marcie
Posted at 13:57h, 31 DecemberHere’s to the unknown! Wishing you and yours all the best in this up and coming new year – :-)!
Karen
Posted at 17:09h, 31 DecemberThank you for your frankness and honesty! It’s nice to know that I am not alone and there’s others out there that are in “uncertainty mode”. I’m in a real transition in my life right now and things are moving so slowly, and seemingly unproductive! I get frustrated and down to the point where my days are ruined and people close to me feel the effects. I’ve go to “choose joy, today, and every day”…. and that’s my motto for the new year, and well, hopefully for the rest of my life! Choosing “joy” is a choice, and hopefully by doing so I’ll work through and out of my slump. Have a great 2014! I look forward to more of your blog posts and images!
Naomi
Posted at 20:33h, 31 DecemberIs it weird that the only thing I “do” for New Years is pick a year to guide me for the next 365 days? Resolutions and changes and intentions for me are better set at the start of a new school year. After the summer sunlight has dissipated into earlier nightfall and cooler temperatures. Slowing down is always a good thing … hoping that it is good for you as well.
Blissmamaof3
Posted at 20:34h, 31 DecemberOh I am right there with you! Not sure where this next year is going to take me but definitely at a crossroads. If only my children would not grow up and we could stay at the stage where they are little forever… I keep hearing Sarah Ban Breathnach in my head, “there are years that ask questions and there are years that answer them.” This is definitley an asking questions kind of year, not my favorite kind but necessary. I’m walking the path with you my friend. Next year at this time, we’ll be ringing in the new year in your neck of the woods. Maybe we could meet up, downtown disney perhaps?! Happy New Year my dear friend!
Marianne
Posted at 17:22h, 01 JanuaryI love you and I’m standing with you, in a slightly uncomfortable place, staring down the great unknown. It’s good to have your company here beautiful friend. x