06 Aug a hazy kind of clarity
Being clear doesn’t always have to mean crystal. Things don’t have to gleam or sparkle. Clarity can come in a warm yet hazy shape-shifting glow and still be clear enough. There’s a reassurance I have found in this idea. I’m realizing too that being in a really good place doesn’t mean you are going to feel good all the time. It’s just not natural and it’s a ridiculous expectation.
Life is made up of shadow and light and that goes the same for our own inner-workings. We have our own personal, internal ups and downs. That’s just the way it goes. The comfort comes in knowing that we can relax into our downs as much as we can ride high on our ups.
I read a wonderful post over at Jen Lee’s blog about the beauty and importance of waiting for our laundry to dry. About how being being quiet isn’t being absent. In fact, it’s about being present. And then, if that wasn’t enough, five minutes later I opened my torn and tattered copy of Simple Abundance and read the excerpt for today called The Gift of Sacred Idleness.
When I feel like I do right now, the only thing to do is…nothing. All I can do is give myself some time to rebound from a busy (albeit wonderful) family vacation. Rest some. Wait some. Read some. Sip tea some. And then see how I feel tomorrow.
Sarah Ban Breathnach said it perfectly,
“…when I sat down, all I could bring myself to do was sit quietly and breath slowly. I didn’t want to meditate, have an authentic conversation with anyone, think, create, be clever or be a conduit. So I just sat there. sipped tea, looked up at the blue sky through the leafy canopy overhead and observed a butterfly’s graceful path through the garden.”
As uncomforable it can seem sometimes to allow for this Sacred Idleness at a time when there’s more to be done than feels humanly possible, it’s importance has never been more clear to me. When all I can bring myself to do is nothing much of anything, that’s got to be OK. Lindsey Mead shared an inspiring story at the Collaborative that rings of this truth and clarity too.
Have you ever been really clear on something and at the same time you felt a haze lingering? I’m in that haze right now and although it’s kind of strange and uncertain, it’s still feels very very clear.