20 Apr I am Enough from Myriam Joseph Loeschen
Image by Katherine Center
It’s been quite some time since I have written you a love letter. In my first attempt, I drafted a letter full of apologies and regrets. I gave it my best effort, taking my time to detail the different choices I should have made and the opportunities I missed. I read it and reread it but it did not sit well to me. I realize that when I have written love letters in the past, I have written about the many wonderful ways in which my lover’s charms have affected my life. I write about the generosity of spirit my love shares with me and I write about the ways in which a simple glance from my love can make my heart sing.
And then there comes you, my truest of true loves. Can it be that at 40 I am just realizing that you have been here all along? Can it be that after years of searching, reaching and longing, you sat quietly in my heart waiting until I recognized that everything I needed was within me. Thank you for staying true, thank you for staying with me, thank you for knowing that eventually I would come around.
As you know, it hasn’t been easy, being bombarded with images and ideals that don’t reflect you. It hasn’t been easy navigating my way in a world were skinny thighs and designer anything hold the key. I’ve battled my way through, bulimia, bigotry and blond ambition and all along, there you were. I have shed many a tear on partners who supported my notion of being undeserving. Only in moments of despair have I turned to you and asked for your help and welcomed your kindness.
Your tender resolve to stay with me steadfast and committed has brought me to this secure place. A constant whisper among the crowd, reminding me that I too am important, that I too am worthy.
Just now I have begun to fall in love with the magnificent possibilities within myself. Just now, I begin to embrace the light that has been guiding my way for all these years. Thank you for revealing to me just how powerful and divine I am. What greater love could a woman want than one in which she is welcomed and forgiven time and again?
Imagine my surprise when I realized, you have been the one I have been waiting for all along.
About Myriam Joseph Loeschen
I am so giddy about having my dear friend Myriam here, I wanted to write about her from my perspective:
Ah, lovely Myriam. Daughter, sister, wife and friend. Giver of kindness and compassion, creater of a million beautiful things, and makerof the kind of food that nourishes both body and soul. You can read about her recent labor of love at Joy for Haiti.