26 Apr light and dark
Moving from sunshine to shade can be a pretty quick transition. Coming off of a bright sunny family vacation back only to be met by dark clouds and scattered showers can leave a girl dejected and depleted. Such is life I guess. I should know that by now, if nothing else.
After and excruciating night with my dog (who has had an extremely adverse reaction to her spaying surgery) I am totally emotional; reeling with a mix of fear, hormones, exhaustion and anxiety. Feeling so sorry for her (and for me) took me to a pretty dark place pretty quickly. I am reminded of my early days of being a mother and how terrifying that was sometimes. I know one bad night doesn’t hold a candle to months of struggle with depression but those feelings of being overwelmed are unmistakable and scary.
And so it goes, the tentative transition from light to dark and the welcome and reassuring shift back to light again. Life is a cycle like that. I’ll admit, that even though I know it with all my heart, that the sun always rises, I’m not always as gracious as I could be when the darkness falls. But, I keep breathing. And walking on. Or resting if neccessary. Sometimes it’s all you can do. And it is enough. No matter how long it takes to get there, I always know I will feel the light on my face again soon.