me in last place

me in last place

When I get into my high energy, super-charged, creative brainstorming modes it’s almost as if nothing can stop me. I feel energized and excited, motivated and inspired. But I’m realizing more and more that during the times when I am most productive and prolific, I am actually exhausting myself. I’m pulled in a million directions and I carry too much all at once. I don’t realize it at the time but I fatigue sometimes and now I know why.

Don’t get me wrong, I’ll take the super-charged version of myself over the lethargic, unmotivated me any day of the week, but the exhaustion hits me like a ton of bricks. Especially late at night when I am trying to squeeze in a blog post, for example.

I’m learning that this is what happens when I put off myself until the end of the day. I’m too tired to enjoy it. Waiting to do something for myself (like write a post here, read a book, get crafty, etc) means I’m usually far too tired to do it at all. Putting myself off really means that I am putting myself last (literally and figuratively).

I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about that lately. About not giving myself space to exhale, to rest, to muse, to play, to dream until it gets too late and I’m just too tired. I’m going to publish this post at the exact time I finish it so you can see what I mean.

I know I’m not alone here. If you’re like me, this sounds familiar. I don’t know about you, but I am getting so ready to make some changes around here. What about you? You in?

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11 Comments
  • Cheri
    Posted at 12:12h, 23 May Reply

    I think that we, as women-wives-mothers, tend to do this a LOT. Occasionally I will do some scrapping or art first thing in the morning… what a difference it makes! Now if I could convince myself to justify it as a daily practice…

  • Rose D., Frenchtown, NJ
    Posted at 12:36h, 23 May Reply

    I am SOOOOO in. Let's make some changes together!!

  • Cathy
    Posted at 16:01h, 23 May Reply

    I think I'm a bit selfish, in that I almost always leave time for me that's not an afterthought. Granted, my schedule, working from home, and a bit of self-absorption (okay, according to my therapist a LOT of self-absorption) has always reminded me to save time for me. It's become habitual, in a sense. Now what I'd like is a bit of your super-charged chutzpah for creative brainstorming, know what I'm saying? That's what I need to work on getting more of.

  • dianelynn
    Posted at 16:21h, 23 May Reply

    i am SO in! typically i wait until after dinner to do anything for myself, and usually end up as a lump on the couch with my eyes barely open.

  • Life in Eden {amy}
    Posted at 18:17h, 23 May Reply

    I certainly hear this, loud and clear. If I don't take advantage of the precious small amount of time I have for me — then it is gone. Doing things in the evening just hardly ever happens. It is not good and I don't like it. So if you've got a plan — I'm in!

  • Kat
    Posted at 22:12h, 23 May Reply

    Most definitely!
    I could have written every word here.
    xx

  • Tamara
    Posted at 02:54h, 24 May Reply

    100% in.

  • Blissmamaof3
    Posted at 02:58h, 24 May Reply

    I am also soooooo in! I rarely make the list let alone be near the top, time for a change indeed!

  • Gerri Smalley
    Posted at 14:19h, 24 May Reply

    I'm in for sure!! This has been my plight for so long. I have to commit every day to being conscious of where I place myself…

  • sue
    Posted at 18:34h, 24 May Reply

    I am in !!! I am so ready for a change!!!!!

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