18 Jan i am enough by Shauntelle Hamlett
“I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.” Psalm 139:14 (NIV)
I am enough…
When I stop trying,
vying
racing around determined to–
figure out who I am… what I’m supposed to do
to be…
I am ENOUGH
when I
AM
I’ve spent a long portion of my life trying to learn how to live authentically. Reading all the right books, praying to God, trying meditation, searching my soul, reaching out to every guru I could access. From my early teens until now, my late thirties, I have spent hours on end basically busily navel-gazing… trying, trying, trying so hard to figure out the meaning of life, the universe, and everything… most importantly, trying to figure out how to be all that I was meant to be.
And where that got me was–
well read
conventionally wise…
chock full of
others’ words….
capable of talking the talk…
internally empty
and constantly striving to live up to some sense of what I COULD be if only
I could find a way
to be
ENOUGH.
Ironically, it took falling apart and losing all pretense of being able to try to be anything else for me to find out that all along, just me, just the person I am when I’m not trying to live up to anything,
is plenty.
Creative, funny, compassionate, thoughtful, silly, loving, affectionate, encouraging…
I don’t have to strive or try to be any of those things, they are part of the core of my being. All the things I’ve always admired about the wonderful people who surround me… all those amazing traits I thought I needed to work harder to emulate… right here, already inside me.
Just waiting for me to STOP.
And be.
I am ENOUGH.
You are too. Trust me on this.
More importantly–
Trust Yourself.
“God, why do I storm heaven for answers that are already in my heart? Every grace I need has already been given me. Oh, lead me to the Beyond within.” ~Macrina Wieherkehr
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About Shauntelle Hamlett
Shauntelle Hamlett is a freelance writer who shares her passion for decorating on tight budget on her blog A Beautiful Abode. She is also a weekly columnist and contributing writer for the Roswell Patch, an online local news site where she shares tips on thriving and surviving during the recession. Send her a tweet @snhamlett if you wanna discuss great craigslist finds, crafts, or how to have a fulfilling creative life while running after several kids, some fish, a cat, and a husband!
rachael maddox
Posted at 19:26h, 18 Januarylove this so much! thanks for sharing 🙂
Ashley Jackson
Posted at 05:20h, 21 JanuaryThis is beautiful. I came across this blog and post from my friends blog just after I wrote a blog about my lack of feeling of self worth. This is just what I needed to read. My heart was blessed. Thank you.
Christina
Posted at 03:04h, 25 Januarythis warmed my heart.
denise
Posted at 21:01h, 03 FebruaryYes! Enough…as is. Full of everything, gifts, love. A beautiful post. Thank you.
Karisa Jackson
Posted at 21:31h, 13 FebruaryI have never commented on a blog before. The fact that you are someone I do not know, and I ran across this site on a google search is makes it even seem even more peculiar; because I would have never thought that I could have read something in this circumstance that would speak so directly to my heart. I wanted to thank you for taking the time to share your heart. I have been searching and running in circles online for hours on end tonight and I finally found what I needed. It is funny when you search and search and then you may have even read something similar before- then someone writes or says it in such a way that it pierces the heart and makes an impact. Thank you.
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