18 Jan i am enough by Shauntelle Hamlett
“I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.” Psalm 139:14 (NIV)
I am enough…
When I stop trying,
racing around determined to–
figure out who I am… what I’m supposed to do
I am ENOUGH
I’ve spent a long portion of my life trying to learn how to live authentically. Reading all the right books, praying to God, trying meditation, searching my soul, reaching out to every guru I could access. From my early teens until now, my late thirties, I have spent hours on end basically busily navel-gazing… trying, trying, trying so hard to figure out the meaning of life, the universe, and everything… most importantly, trying to figure out how to be all that I was meant to be.
And where that got me was–
chock full of
capable of talking the talk…
and constantly striving to live up to some sense of what I COULD be if only
I could find a way
Ironically, it took falling apart and losing all pretense of being able to try to be anything else for me to find out that all along, just me, just the person I am when I’m not trying to live up to anything,
Creative, funny, compassionate, thoughtful, silly, loving, affectionate, encouraging…
I don’t have to strive or try to be any of those things, they are part of the core of my being. All the things I’ve always admired about the wonderful people who surround me… all those amazing traits I thought I needed to work harder to emulate… right here, already inside me.
Just waiting for me to STOP.
I am ENOUGH.
You are too. Trust me on this.
“God, why do I storm heaven for answers that are already in my heart? Every grace I need has already been given me. Oh, lead me to the Beyond within.” ~Macrina Wieherkehr
About Shauntelle Hamlett
Shauntelle Hamlett is a freelance writer who shares her passion for decorating on tight budget on her blog A Beautiful Abode. She is also a weekly columnist and contributing writer for the Roswell Patch, an online local news site where she shares tips on thriving and surviving during the recession. Send her a tweet @snhamlett if you wanna discuss great craigslist finds, crafts, or how to have a fulfilling creative life while running after several kids, some fish, a cat, and a husband!